you know the times when your mind is working in double time. or triple ... or quadruple time ...? and you're doing nothing but re-thinking every decision you've ever made ... or worse ... rethinking the decisions that OTHERS have made, that have affected you, that there's nothing you could have done to change, but you constantly wonder if there's something you could have done to affect the outcome ...
it's hard. knowing the ONE person you feel like you were supposed to be with forever, could just turn and walk away. it's hard. knowing that you're supposed to pick up the pieces and do it all on your own. it hard. knowing that they're going on with their life, doing as they please, with whom they please, when they please. it's hard. constantly wondering if you're just going to be going on with the rest of your life, standing on your own.
all you can do is try your best to be strong and ... snuggle with the puppies. yeah ... i said it. i dont have a whole lot of encouraging words on this one.
