it's just one of those days ...

Its just one of those days
When you don't wanna wake up
Everything is fucked
Everybody sucks
You don't really know why
But want justify
Rippin' someone's head off
No human contact
And if you interact
Your life is on contract
Your best bet is to stay away motherfucker
It's just one of those days!

Yup. that's how I feel right now. Limp Bizkit said it just right. today's just got too much going on. a bit more than i might be able to handle at once. i'm astounded by some of the people in this world. by people that i've allowed in my four-walls. i've always thought of myself as a strong person. as someone that took what life handed me, made the best of it, and moved along, knowing that no matter what i encountered, i would be ok. i've always tried my best to make the serenity prayer my mantra ... knowing that there is no point in wishing to change things that are beyond our control. all we can do is wish to be able to accept them.

so ... now that i've finally come to terms with these new changes in my life ... and am doing my best to continue the "fun-having" ... and going out ... and moving on ... which ... btw ... i would consider myself rather successful at :) ... it seems as though every time i conquer the next bend in the road, i find a NEW bend. why is that? why can't i just find a straight-away ... for just a little ways ...? why must this road be so long, and hard ... and wind-ey ...?

everyone comes and goes into one another's lives for a reason. and we don't always know what those reasons are. and we don't always know who those people in our lives are going to be, that are meant to be the KEY players. so sometimes ... we just have to take things one day at a time. and experience things one situation at a time. sometimes the way we handle things afterwards mean more, and overshadow everything that happened previously. but all we can do ... is pray for patience, and guidance, and serenity. acceptance for dealing with the hand that we are dealt. because ... like they say ... until we stop staring at the door that was closed ... we'll never see the new one that was opened for us. and sometimes ... that new door shows us a really great new world. you never know ...